write yourself a love letter by SOULPANCAKE

Sebelum ni, tak pernah terfikir pun untuk bagi surat chenta dekat diri sendiri. So far, aku rasa aku pernah bagi 3 pucuk surat cinta dekat boys. Hehe.. Oleh sebab time sekolah dulu terlebih confident dengan diri sendiri, makanya surat-surat tersebut telah terbagi kepada mereka dan satu lagi pada dia yang aku dok tergila dulu. Tapi, itu semua dulu..

Write yourself a love letter merupakan sebuah video project daripada SoulPancake. Ye, aku baru lepas tonton short video ini yang mengambil masa kurang dari 4 minit aku namun sedikit sebanyak telah menyedarkan dan soalan yang sedang bermain di dalam kepala hotak aku bahawa adakah aku betul-betul sayang diri aku sendiri.

So, the letter begins like this..

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Dearie Afzan, 

I've already known you for almost 26 years. You are a lady now. How time flies. It's like you were just finishing your SPM yesterday and suddenly you've become a grown-up woman. 

You're a strong woman, but only on surface cause i know deep down inside you're like a little girl who are still searching for the right path to take in life. You've been in so much obstacles throughout the years yet you seem to be fine in the eyes of the people around, because you don't want them to see the tears in your eyes thus you fake your own smile.

Though you have lots of pain in you, never look down on yourself. Try to love yourself more. You will never find love in others if there's none of it in you. Because love comes from pure heart and you can't just simply have it if you don't mend your own heart. Try not to be so heartless, even though you try to act calm and just ignore whatever they say about you whether it's good or bad. Because inside, you're still hurt with what they say about you.

Try to be normal for a bit. Because you try so damn hard to please the one you love. And you act like a weirdo just because you want them to like you but then, you just hate what you did. Because in the end, you will end up regretting what have you done until now. 

You have a lot of anger in yourself because of the past. Forgive is the best medicine to release the anger and try to forget regretful things that had been done, either by you or others. You like to put all the blames to yourself and redha on what has got in your way. Stand up on your feet and fight for yourself after this.

But then again, the good side of you is the one that made me so lucky to have you. 

You are humble and don't like to seek for attention, like you just standing at the corner of the room with a lot of people and just stare at their behavior. You tend to make people enjoy to be around you because of your dumb jokes. Abg Hairol used to tease you to be his partner and join Raja Lawak. You are an enjoyable kind of person who likes to play around and easy-going even with strangers.

You like to help people though you know you will be in trouble yourself after that. You don't seek for rewards but smiles when you give help to others.You're very supportive when it comes to high up people's self-motivation. 

You know you can be an achiever in this world. Do not lose hope though life sometimes' going up and down, like a roller coaster.

Last but not least,

Bring yourself more to Allah because He is The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful. 

Have faith in Him, because He knows best for His slave.

I am grateful to be with you and I would never want someone else to replace you.

Love you, always.

~ Afzan ~

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST 

~yona_afzan~