when your crush is now having a girlfriend

What would you do if you find out that a boy you are having crush on for almost a year is now having a girl on his own? How would you feel and react about the news? 

Well, that's what I've been through right now..

Yes, I've been keeping this feeling towards him selepas aku went through a broke up. For me, it's quite a terrible yet horrible break up as I thought we could have end up in a more serious relationship. It was almost a 3 years-relationship and I thought that would be the last love I'm going to cherish 'til the end of my life. Sampaikan Abang Hairol tanya aku about us masa borak-borak pasal life and relationship ni, aku yakin giler jawab there'll be something serious going to happen between us. Well, I guess it didn't happened the way I wanted it to be.

Siyesly, aku tersangat-sangatlah down waktu kena dumped tu. Memang tak pergi kelas langsung, asyik nangis je. Dah rasa macam takde life, semua benda yang aku buat aku buat macam lifeless. Sampaikan studio aku terbarai-barai. Memang siyes time tu rasa macam nak quit je study. Dah memang rasa tahap takde harapan. Sampai la aku jumpa dia when I was in this student society.

Siyesly, at first when you looked at him, he's just like any other ordinary guy. But when you see him more often, he's some kind of a mysterious person. Haha, dah nama pun budak archie kan. Observation is a must in every aspect that we do, including to people. Dia tak banyak cakap, even when he's around his friends. I like that when he was with his friends, dia cakap-cakap jugak but when it comes to lawak thingy, he just smile and takde la nak gelak-gelak bagai nak rak. Siyesly cool giler..

At first, memang la rasa macam main-main je, suka-suka je suka dekat dia. Mencari distraction la kiranya sebab tak nak terlalu memikirkan perkara yang dah berlalu. Tapi, tu la kan. Orang cakap, bila dah selalu perhati boleh menyebabkan jatuh hati. Siyesly, masa mula-mula tu memang la macam buat rilek je sebab ye la, baru lepas break up.. Giler apa nak minat kat other boys in just one glance? But then I realized that each time I looked at him, I had butterflies in my stomach..Haha, macam ada benda menari-nari dalam perut la gittew. 

Yes, I've never actually spoke to him. Siyesly, aku tak pernah bercakap dengan dia sampaila kitorang ada dua events ni. The first event was when he was my leader and I had to have a conversation with him which aku siyesly sangat amat terlampau malu sebenarnya for all those things yang berkaitan dengan dia. My friends knew about me having this kinda feelings. Sampai waktu aku berbual pasal resit dengan dia pun aku bagitahu dekat member-member aku n semua. Memang sumpah lawak la masa tu. Rasa macam giler pun ada. Maybe aku tak pernah minat orang yang betul-betul suka. The previous relationships that I had, guys yang datang approach, oleh sebab prinsip yang aku pegang masa tu "love someone who loves you, not someone that you loved". Tapi memang waktu tu rasa macam siyesly nice je. Dapat jumpa walau sekejap pun dah rasa macam dah best hari tu. 

The second event was when one of his friends and I were the head of the activities for the event. Yang ni memang aku rase siyesly LOL giler. I had so many chances to talk to him sebab we went there by our advisor's car. Which I'm kinda like..sumpah rasa macam tak boleh bernafas, bernafas dah tak ikut hidung, hidung berdarah semua..haha.. In fact, penasihat aku ni pun tau aku minat dekat dia. Memang bak angin bertiup awan berarak, sayupnya hatiku melayang di angkasa.. But, ni lagi lol. Aku yang siyes pemalu bila I had to confront him. Memang takde sepatah pun la yang keluar dari mulut aku. Aku just bercakap dengan penasihat aku and another girl yang naek sekali dengan kitorang. And dekat situ, memang siyesly heaven bagi aku sebab anything je, dia akan call aku. Memang menjerit je la kerja aku kalau habis each activity. Hehe, naseb baek la Kaety and Panda ada dengan aku masa program. Diorang pun tolong menjerit sama dengan aku. Sungguh, best giler perasaan tu waktu tu.

Aku pernah bagitau dia yang aku suka dekat dia. Tapi, waktu tu aku cakap dekat dia yang aku just suka je dekat dia. And quite suprisingly, he's okay with that. Tak macam certain boys yang macam terus push the girl aside bila girl tu dah confess perasaan dia. That's another thing I like him. Memang aku hardly jumpa orang macam ni. Which is why I kept on liking him but not sampai nak kapel ke ape la. Siyesly, my main intention was not to have couple anymore. Aku dah rasa macam fobia nak couple-couple bagai ni semua. Ye la, dah couple lama-lama pun boleh putus jugak, ape de hal. Orang cakap, selagi takde ikatan apa-apa, macam boleh jadi. And lepas dia grad aritu, I tanya lagi dekat dia whether dia ada someone special tak sebab aku ada terbaca dari member dia yang dia ada keluar dengan ada girl ni. So, aku rasa macam tak nak la kacau dia kalau dia dah ada yang berpunya. Aku dah pernah rasa what it's like kalau ada orang ketiga dalam hubungan kita. So, aku tak nak jadi orang sebegitu. And yes, he mentioned that he now has a girlfriend.

So, it's time for me to walk away and not disturbing someone else's boyfriend. Tak manis kata orang-orang tua, jadi batu penghalang dalam relationship orang. Giler nak jadi orang ketiga semua, siyes bukan aku. Nanti when the time comes and I have finally found my Mr TOP, he will not be excluded to get my wedding invitation card..=)

:: It is nice having a friend like you, though I have confessed my feelings towards you, you are always being nice as if nothing happens. The way you appreciate other people's feelings is one of the things I truly love about you..

Wishing you true happiness, now and hereafter..Mr Cool..^_^

:: Ok, ni hanyalah gambar hiasan semata-mata. Aku tak rasa macam nak berderai air mata ke, berlinang ke, bergenang ke semua takde. Sebab the way dia tolak aku adalah dengan cara yang paling aku rasa siyes rasa macam terhormat sangat. In fact, he's being too gentleman which aku tak pernah jumpa guy like him sebelum ni. Siyesly, and I hope I will be able to find someone like him someday somewhere..InsyaAllah ^_^

:: Aku pernah suka at this one boy when I was in school. My friends insisted me to give him a card during his birthday. There's something happened in between those times and from that moment I swore to myself not to show my feelings to any other boy 'til I met this Mr Cool.. Thanks to you, my perception now has changed.. ♥♥♥

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST
~yona_afzan~

the brave little me

It takes full courage to stand up
and ask about what you really want to know,
what you really want to understand.

Because no matter how sweet or bitter it might be,
once you've got the answer,
you'll find yourself with a very grateful-mixed feelings
only you can understand.

But, trust me.
You'll be in a very deep ease after that..

:: just ask, don't just sit back and hoping others will find the answer for you..

:: i'm not being honest. I'm just being me..^_^

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST
~yona_afzan~

How Do You Know If You're in the Friend Zone?

1. Never Calling First

Are you always the first to call, text, or email, whether it's just to say hi or to make plans to hang out? Unless this person is extremely shy, if he rarely or never makes the first move, it's highly likely he considers you just a friend. He may like you, but he's not going out of his way to keep in touch.

2. Always Hanging Out In A Group

Maybe she is just shy or taking things slowly, but if someone is interested in you, she'll generally do all she can to spend one-on-one time with you. If she hasn't suggested spending alone time with you, she likely doesn't think of you as more than a friend.

3. Not Touching You

While some people are naturally "touchy-feely" with everyone, in general, someone who is interested in you is more likely to try to get close to you and make some sort of body contact. If he never touches you, pulls away when you touch him, doesn't touch you in return, or has closed-off body language, he probably doesn't like you in that way.

4. Superficial Conversations

Have you two had any deep and meaningful conversations recently? You know, more than just chatting about the big game or what you watched on TV last night. Sharing heart-to-heart conversations about key events in your life, what's most important to you, and your plans for the future could be a sign that he or she wants to get to know you better and possibly take your relationship further. Likewise, an absence of such conversation might well be a clue that you've been relegated to the friend zone.

5. Frequently Cancelling

Someone who likes you as more than a friend is not going to miss an opportunity to be with you. He'll leap at any chance to spend time in your presence. So, if he frequently has an excuse about why he won't be able to make it, or if he often cancels or doesn't show up, chances are you're not a major priority.

6. Talking About Other People He/She Likes

It's a pretty big clue that you're deeply entrenched in the friend zone if the object of your affection mentions other cute guys she'd like to date. On the other hand, if she tells you about how other people she's dated were such jerks (unlike you!), the outlook may be brighter.

7. Trying To Hook You Up With Their Friends

If your desired one starts to play cupid and not so subtly tries to set you up with one of her friends, you can pretty much give up on ever getting out of the friend zone. You're such a good friend that she wants you to be happy -- with someone else.

8. Lack of Eye Contact

While gazing into one another's eyes is one of the key signs of a blossoming relationship, lack of serious eye contact may indicate the opposite. Test it out -- does he hold your gaze or avoid it?

9. Not Making an Effort in Appearance

A key indicator that your special someone has lumped you into her friend zone is if she doesn't try to look her best for you. If she's in her PMS sweatpants sans makeup more often than not when you're together, she's clearly not trying to impress you. It may be time to move on.

10. Referring to You as Just a Friend

Does he constantly refer to you as "just a friend," or even worse, as like a sister to him? If so, things are not looking good. He's making it pretty clear that you are well within the friend zone, and you'll just have to make the best of it. Put your chin up, and move on. There's plenty more fish in the sea, and the right person for you will come along before you know it!

taken from:

http://www.chacha.com/gallery/4819/how-do-you-know-if-you-re-in-the-friend-zone

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST

~yona_afzan~

selamat hari raya Aidiladha

Hari ni merupakan Hari Raya Aidiladha buat seluruh umat Islam yang berada di seluruh negara, termasuk Malaysia. Banyak korban yang telah berjaya dikorbankan dan semoga korban yang telah dikorbankan hari ni mendapat keberkatan dari-Nya, insyaAllah..

Sebenarnya, aku baru lepas usha tweets kak @Wardina Safiyyah, dia cakap yang dia "sebak tengok ada pisau tak tajam tersekat-sekat, ada yang tidak ada hikmah/xlembut dengan binatang. Mungkin perlu dimasukkan ke dalam khutbah." Mungkin sebab ada yang menyembelih haiwan korban dengan kurang erti pengorbanan dalam diri. 

Ya, ada yang melakukan korban tanpa mengerti apa korban itu sebenarnya. Haiwan yang disembelih tidak disembelih dengan peralatan yang benar-benar tajam. Malah, ada yang sanggup menyeret, gelak ketawa, tidak memberi makan terlebih dahulu kepada haiwan berkenaan. Bagi aku, korban haruslah dilakukan dengan penuh pengertian dalam diri dan tanya dekat diri sendiri kenapa kau turut serta dalam aktiviti korban tu? Adakah kau betul-betul dah menghayati erti korban yang sebenar-benarnya, ataupun kau hanya ingin menjadi salah seorang hero yang berjaya menumbangkan seekor haiwan dalam aktiviti tersebut? Mungkin kau dah biasa terlibat dalam aktiviti korban ni, tu pasal kau dah tak berapa nak join sangat pengertian korban ni. Janji haiwan tu dah selamat kena sembelih, habis cerita. Tepuk dada, tanya diri. Hanya kau je yang ada jawapan itu..

Ok, aku bukan nak berdiskusi pasal benda tu sebenarnya. Aku cuma memberikan buah fikiran aku semata-mata. Mak aku cakap, kalau kita nangis sebab tengok haiwan tu kena sembelih, kita tak boleh makan daging dia. Tu pasal aku tak berani nak join aktiviti korban, takut tak dapat merasa daging korban. Kampung aku dekat Terengganu tu sebelah masjid je kot. Aku pernah la jugak sekali tertengok macam mana orang melakukan korban. Lembu tu menangis kot masa parang dah ada dekat leher dia, sebab dia tahu life dia will end in any second. Huih, time tu memang berair la mata aku. Sumpah sadis. Dan semenjak dari itu, aku tak pernah nak tengok bagaimana haiwan dikorbankan. Alhamdulillah, orang yang sembelih lembu tu masa tu memang betul-betul ikut syarat korban. Terima kasih pakcik sebab tak menganiaya haiwan tersebut. Pak cik memang terbaik..=)

Enough about haiwan korban. Aku harap lepas ni mereka yang terlibat dengan aktiviti penyembelihan dan korban benar-benar faham akan syarat korban. Baca buku dulu sebelum ikut orang buat korban. Kalau tak, sia-sia je ikut korban tu..

Raya haji aku tahun ni sadis sikit sebab aku tak balik rumah, beraya dengan keluarga. Huhu, berkorban demi kawan. Kesian pulak nak suruh Nurul kerja sorang-sorang. Takpe la, insyaAllah aku dah tak lama dekat UTM ni. Lepas ni, every raya aku boleh ada sekali dengan famili, sekiranya dipanjangkan usia. Walaupun tak balik beraya dengan mama semua, pakcik-pakcik teksi dekat sini siyesly best sebab diorang ingat jugak dekat kitorang. Ada yang bawak masakan Bugis, dengan burasak, nasi impit, rendang daging semua ke konti ni. Terasa la jugak raya walaupun jauh di perantauan *ecehceh* Pakcik Hashim pulak lagi best sebab belanja aku dengan Nurul McD yang sejak pagi tadi aku asyik dok mengidam. Hehe, kedai makan dekat dalam UTM ni semua tutup, sikit lagi nak rasa macam padang jarak padang terkukur.

Jadi sekarang, cuma kerabu perut je tak dapat-dapat lagi. Takpe, ada masa kejap lagi, takpun masa-masa seterusnya aku gi carik kat ceruk-ceruk Johor Bahru ni. Jumpa la tu nanti..=)

Salam Aidiladha buat semua yang mengenali..

Juga, buat anda yang berada jauh di mata namun terletak amat dekat di hati..

:: Apakah erti pengorbanan buat anda? 

Bagi aku, selagi kita sanggup berkorban demi insan yang kita sayangi, itulah erti pengorbanan yang terbesar dan sebenar.. Walau tidak diungkap, namun ia dapat dirasa melalui hati nurani..

i got lembu nak jaga.. salam aidiladha

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST
~yona_afzan~

Big Bang Concert Malaysia Alive Tour 2012

Tickets Price for Big Bang Malaysia Alive Tour 2012:
RM688: VIP Seating
RM588: Premier Rockpit
RM488: Rockpit
RM388: Seating
RM188: Free Standing
RM288 / RM198 / RM98: Free Seating

Waaaaaa, tak sangka pejam celik pejam celik dah nak masuk penghujung Oktober. Dan sedar tak sedar, konsert Big Bang bakal berlangsung lagi 2 hari lagi. Wah, debaran kian terasa tapi malangnya, aku tak punya  sebarang tiket untuk masuk stadium tu..

Argh, ape la mahal bedo'oh tiket dia tu..=_="

Ok, takpe..

Next time diorang buat tour lagi, aku akan pastikan aku ada tiket. 

Sebab masa tu confirm dah kerja. 

Ape lagi, kita enjoy la sekali sekala. 

Muahahahahahaha..^_^ ♥

♥ fantastic baby ♥

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST 

~yona_afzan~