#marriageadvise

Beautiful advice from a divorced man after 16 years of marriage.

#1. Never stop courting. Never stop dating. NEVER EVER take that woman for granted.
#2. Protect your own heart. There is a special place in your heart where no one must enter except for your wife.
#3. Fall in love over and over again.
#4. Always see the best in her.
#5. It’s not your job to change or fix her - your job is to love her as she is with no expectation of her ever changing.
#6. Take full accountability for your own emotions.
#7. Never blame your wife if you get frustrated or angry at her - it is only because it is triggering something inside of YOU.
#8. Allow your woman to just be.
#9. Be silly - don’t take yourself so damn seriously. Laugh. And make her laugh.
#10. Fill her soul everyday.
#11. Be present. Give her not only your time, but your focus, your attention and your soul.
#12. Be willing to take her sexually, to carry her away in the power of your masculine presence, to consume her and devour her with your strength.
#13. Don’t be an idiot - And don’t be afraid of being one either.
#14. Give her space.
#15. Be vulnerable - you don’t have to have it all together.
#16. Be fully transparent.
#17. NEVER STOP GROWING TOGETHER.
#18. Don’t worry about money.
#19. Forgive immediately and focus on the future rather than carrying weight from the past.
#20. Always choose love. ALWAYS CHOOSE LOVE. ALWAYS CHOOSE LOVE.

- In the end marriage isn't about happily ever after. It’s about a commitment to grow together and a willingness to continually invest in creating something that can endure eternity. <3

Dear Future Soulmate

Dear Future Soulmate,

I don’t believe we’ve met yet. But when we do, and I know we will, you will be the most important person in my life. I can promise you now that it won’t be love at first sight, nor will it necessarily be easy— nothing has come easy in my life. But I will fall in love with you and your flaws. You will fall in love with me and mine. I will love you not because you are pretty, or because you are easy to talk to, or fun to hang out with; I’m sure you will be all those things, but it won’t be what I fall in love with.

You see, I love you because of who you are. I love the experiences you’ve been through. I love how those experiences have shaped how you think and the person that you’ve become. I love the fact that you are compassionate and kind. I love that you are smart and educated. I love that we share similar life experiences. I love how seemingly easy it is for me to empathize with you. I love that you are my best friend. I love you unconditionally.

This is all speculation, of course. Truth is, I don’t know if you actually exist. I don’t know whether we will ever meet. And I surely don’t know if there is such a thing as a soulmate. But I like to believe there is. I like to believe we will one day find each other. I will never give up hope that there is really someone for everyone. Until I find you, you will lie in my dreams and there you will remain as hope and inspiration.

Love.
Your future another half.

#copyandpaste

Thanks for the memory..

Rasanya dah lama giler tak mengarang tentang perasaan. Alhamdulillah, raya tahun ni takde seorang pun makcik atau pak cik waima sepupu sepapat pat pat siku lipat yang bertanyakan tentang kahwin mahupun jodoh. Terasa begitu aman raya tahun ni. Diharapkan agar ia bakal berlanjutan sehingga ke akhirnya.

Tiba-tiba aku teringatkan kisah lama. Kisah cinta monyet di zaman persekolahan, muda remaja. Tapi rasanya takde la monyet sangat, sebab masa tu  masing-masing dah habis spm, kiranya cinta baru nak meningkat dewasa gittew.

Dia anak orang kaya, umurnya kurang setahun daripada aku. Anak sulung daripada 5/6 orang adik-beradik yang kesemuanya lelaki. Anak harapan keluarga. Pelajar kebanggaan sekolah. Bapanya dikenali. Ibunya je aku tak berapa pasti. Rasanya surirumah tangga sepenuh masa. Tak silap aku la.

Kenal masa main lampu dengan sekolah sebelah. Hehe, time-time dulu takde fb lagi. Tak sangka plak dengan bermesej dan meminta pertolongan untuk folio matematik tambahan, bermula detik percintaan. Mesej dah macam ape, sanggup beli fon sendiri sebab nak privasi.

First time jumpa masa ambil result spm. Hahaha, time ni memang menggeletar habis nak bertemu muka. Nasib baik teman baik sedia menemani. Kali pertama jumpa, terus ada double date. Sumpah, hati terbang ke mana pun tak diketahui. Bahagia je rasa.

Lepas spm, aku kerja sambilan di butik pakaian. Dia sibuk dengan kelas masa cuti. Hehe, anak orang kaya kan. Untunglaaa. Asal beritahu topap kering, dia la yang paling cepat topapkan. Dulu boleh airtime. Celcom dengan celcom boleh transfer credit. Dah namapun kerja, part time plak tu. Aku buat kerja sepenuh hati. Jadi, terkadang je fon di tangan. Asal masa rehat, check fon. Walaupun aku tak reply, dia tak jemu hantar mesej. Paling banyak, mesej lawak jenaka. Memang kelakar giler.

Aku perempuan yang senggugut masa period. Memang senggugut yang amat. Selalunya, mood memang swing bak taufan katrina. Tapi, dia pandai ambil hati. Kadang-kadang, dia selalu gula-gulakan adik dia konon-konon bagi kata semangat dan segala macam perangsang supaya sakit tu hilang. Hehe, selalu kalau dia buat macamtu, aku rasa nak hempok je dia dengan fon kalau dia ada depan mata. Tapi, sayang punya pasal. Layankan aje la. Waktu ni, kitorang tak pernah keluar berdua. Busy kerja..

Cinta menginjak ke zaman matrik. Aku di johor, dia asasi. Walaupun jauh, asal ada masa terluang aku akan pulang. Sambil tu, dating dengan dia. Yang bagusnya, dia tak pernah tinggal solat. Dan dia selalu ingatkan aku masa kalau dah nak dekat pukul 7 malam. Curfew gitu. Anak dara mana boleh keluar sampai lewat malam. Kadang-kadang, kitorang lepak asasi je sambil konon studi. Hehe, ingat nak sedut ilmu fizik daripada budak otak geliga, tak dapat-dapat jugak. Dia je yang selalunya belajar seorang dan aku bertindak sebagai pengacau.

Movie pertama yang kitorang tengok dan kali pertama aku menonton wayang adalah cerita Pathology. Dah nama pun bercinta dengan budak medic, ikutkan aje la dia nak tengok cerita ni.

Tapi, panas disangka hingga ke petang rupanya hujan di tengahari. Di matrik, aku aktif jugak masuk aktiviti itu ini. Dan secara tak langsungnya, aku mula kenal orang lain. Disebabkan sebelum ni aku tak pernah rasa ada orang lain yang minat aku secara berjemaah, aku pun layankan sampaikan aku terabaikan dia. Dan dalam pada masa yang sama, aku kenalkan kawan matrik aku kepada dia yang telah menyebabkan terjadinya perjumpaan semula dia dan ex dia yang kebetulan sematrik dengan aku.

Gaduh-baik-gaduh-baik, kesudahannya aku dan dia tidak jumpa jalan penyelesaian yang terbaik selain perpisahan. Bengkak-bengkak jugak mata sebab asyik dok menangis je masa clash tu. Sampai tak sanggup masuk kelas, mata lebih teruk daripada panda. Ada sekali cikgu baru nak masuk kelas awal pagi, aku boleh selamba keluar balik hostel sebab dah tak boleh nak tahan air mata daripada tumpah. Ada juga pujuk dan sumpah untuk setia kembali, tapi masing-masing mungkin panas hati. Takde yang nak buang ego diri. Sungguhpun masih ada sayang dalam hati, mungkin itu yang terbaik buat kami. Lagu 'Kenangan Terindah' merupakan lagu terakhir dia kirimkan dekat aku.

Andai dapat diundurkan masa, ini adalah salah satu masa yang aku ingin putarkan kembali dan menebus segala kesalahan yang telah aku lakukan. Dan kifarah aku. Sehingga kini, tak ku temui lelaki sebaik dia. Mungkin ini balasan untuk aku yang tidak mensyukuri pemberian Allah yang terbaik buat aku.

First cut is the deepest.
I'm sorry for things i've done.
Thanks for the memory.
If i could turn back time, one of it will be you.

Iche liebe diche,
Am.
(25082005 - 28052007)

Bertugas.Hidup.Berjasa

Kemenjadian pelajar semenjak 090204.
Bertugas Hidup Berjasa @ Technical Institute Kuala Lumpur.

Once a TIKLian, always a TIKLian.. :)

#‎budakawam‬
‪#‎bombzfamilia‬
‪#‎budaklampu‬
‪#‎nerdygirl‬
‪#‎memoriterindah‬
‪#‎mybestfriend‬
‪#‎loveydovey‬

— with Jee Archibald at Sekolah Menengah Teknik Cheras Kuala Lumpur.

 

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST
~yona_afzan~

something about me.. :)

something about me.. :)

♥ jenis yang suka bersederhana dalam apa jua perkara
♥ seldomly go out and rather stay at home and spend time with family when there is nothing to do/during weekends
♥ a crazy sister for her beloved brothers and sisters
♥ a person who loves her big family (including pakcik, makcik, sepupu, sepapat, anak sedara dll)
♥ sukakan aktiviti volunteerism/kemasyarakatan
♥ sukakan aktiviti mencabar/extreme games - bungee jumping, flying fox, daki gunung, camping
♥ sedang berusaha untuk menjadi muslimah yang lebih baik dari masa ke masa

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST
~yona_afzan~

what do i look in a man? :)

what do i look in a man? :)

♥ always have faith and believe in ISLAM as ISLAM is way of life
♥ humble
♥ non-smoking type
♥ a family man
♥ always look after his parents and siblings
♥ taller than i am
♥ always seek for better plan in life
♥ lives a healthy lifestyle
♥ lovingly person
♥ love children
♥ i tend not to have co-wife in my marriage life

paling utama: BERPERIBADI MULIA DAN DAPAT MEMBIMBING ISTERI.

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST
~yona_afzan~

20 EXTRAORDINARY THINGS ABOUT ME..

Khas utk mummy Riyadh, @nurulaina_rashidi yg sudi mentag saya. 

So, these are 20 things about me.. :D

1. Muka je ganas tapi cengeng orangnya.

2. Penggila kaler pink dan berazam untuk beli semua perkakas rumah kaler pink bila dah ada rumah sendiri.

3. First impression yang orang bagi selalunya berunsur negatif. Mungkin sebab muka ketat sangat kot.

4. Pernah digelar gemuk tapi sekarang tidak lagi.

5. Kalo dah start suka dekat seseorang/sesuatu, perasaan suka tu menggila. Kadang2 dah rasa macam obses. Tapi kalo dah benci tu, memang tak la nak suka balik.

6. Mudah tacing lagi2 dah meningkat usia ni. Hmmm~

7. Kuat makan dan takde pantang makan. Cuma kureng kalo mee kuning, telur rebus, kacang goreng.

8. Lebih suka sorang2 dari ramai2.

9. Sedang menceburkan diri dalam aktiviti kemasyarakatan dan volunteerism.

10. Dengan benda2 kecik pun boleh menggembirakan hati dengan jayanya. Xperlu hadiah mahal2.

11. Xberapa suka makan di tempat mewah. Ntahhh~

12. Penggila kasut dan long dress.. :D

13. Kekidalan yang menggila. Even main gitar pun kidal. Guna kutleri pun songsang.

13. Suka laut.

14. Kalau nak buat keputusan, memang beria tanya pendapat orang. Tapi end up, pilih keputusan yang dicadangkan sendiri.

15. Pilihan makanan: kambing > seafood > ikan > daging > ayam.

16. Noob bab2 gadget.

17. Sedang dalam misi untuk backpacking seantero Malaysia dan mencari tarikh dan masa yang sesuai.

18. Selamba dan tak kisah pasal orang nak cakap apa2. Janji diri sendiri bahagia.

19. Si lurus bendul bak pembaris yg kadang2 bersifat tradisional dan kolot.

20. Sedang berusaha menjadi insan yg berguna demi agama, bangsa dan negara..

Sekian dari saya. 

Moh le kita tag orang yang seterusnya.. XD ♥

@jumma_merican 

@sofiamerican 

@afiqmerican 

@princess_alolahey 

@admsyarif 

@didadidid 

@jeenox 

@panda_astronaut 

@doubleyana 

@tyaachan 

♥♥♥

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST 

~yona_afzan~

Kang Dae Sung - Baby Don't Cry

**Romanization**

jigeum nega ulgo itda haedo dallajilgeon eopdago
jigeum nega eobseo jinda haedo dallajilgeon eopdago
hajiman neon wae ulgo inni
majimakcheoreom nuneul gamgo inni
da jinan iri janha ije useobwa My baby

sumanheun saramdeul tteonagado
i noraen yeongwonhae ne gyeote
geu manteon chingudeul da tteonado
yeogi nan ne yeope gyesok seo isseulgeoya

Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry
eonjenga deo bitnalgeoya Give me your smile
Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry
hanbeonman deo nal wihae Just give me your smile

imi modeun ireun jinagatjanha
geurae geurae eojetbame nega algo inneun
neoui joheun jeom neon geugeol jeil jal aljanha
hajiman neon wae ulgo inni
sesangi kkeutnal geotcheoreom nun gamgo inni
da jinan irijanha ireoke jil sun eobtjanha My Lady

sumanheun saramdeul tteonagado
i noraen yeongwonhae ne gyeote (hamkke halgeoya)
geu manteon chingudeul da tteonado
yeogi nan ne yeope gyesok seo isseulgeoya

Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry
eonjenga deo bitnalgeoya Give me your smile
Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry
hanbeonman deo nal wihae Just give me your smile

Just give me your smile
Just give me your smile
Just give me your smile

sumanheun saramdeul tteonagado (tteonagado)
i noraen yeongwonhae negyeote (hamkkehae)
geu manteon chingudeul da tteonado (yeyeye)
yeogi nan neyeope gyesok seo isseulgeoya

Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry
eonjenga deo bitnalgeoya Give me your smile
Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry
hanbeonman deo nal wihae Just give me your smile

Baby don’t cry baby don’t cry baby don’t cry

**English Translation**

Even if you cry right now, it won’t change anything
Even if you’re gone, it won’t change anything

But why are you crying?
Why are you closing your eyes like it’s the end?
Everything has passed, smile now my baby

Even though many people left you
This song will forever be by your side (We’ll be together)
Even though all your friends left you
I’ll continue to stand here next to you

Baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry
Someday you’ll shine, please give me your smile
Baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry
One more time, for me, just give me your smile

I’ve been through all of these already
Yeah, yeah, last night
I know your good points
You know it better than me

But why are you crying?
Why are you closing your eyes like it’s the end of the world?
Everything has passed, we can’t do anything now my lady

Even though many people left you
This song will forever be by your side (We’ll be together)
Even though all your friends left you
I’ll continue to stand here next to you

Baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry
Someday you’ll shine, please give me your smile

Baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry
One more time, for me, just give me your smile
Just give me your smile 3x

Even though many people left you (left you)
This song will forever be by your side (We’ll be together)
Even though all your friends left you
I’ll continue to stand here next to you

Baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry
Someday you’ll shine, please give me your smile
Baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry
One more time, for me, just give me your smile

Just give me your smile Oh
Baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry, baby don’t cry

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST

~yona_afzan~

T.O.P – ACT LIKE NOTHING’S WRONG

**Romanization**

Yo this is the song for my ex girlfriend aight
Yeah d-d-dedicated
I promise I ain’t gonna hold out shawty
I’ma give it all to you listen up bust it

Amureotji ahneun cheok
useoya hanayo
Na amureotji ahneun cheok
haruga jinaganeyo oh oh

Geudaeyeo oraenmane jeonhwal
georeottjyo geunyang miahnhae
Imal hago shipeo-seo jeonhwahaeseo deo miahnhae
Soljikhi halmareun eomneunde
heossori haeyo
Geudaeneun jalsalgo ittneunjiga gunggeumhaeseo
Yong-geoneun wae mutjyo ?
“Ddo sul hanjanhaett-gunyo”
Hanmadiga shileo meoljjeonghan cheokhae
aesseo eokjiro mandeun yaegitgeori suhwagi-e
neon amu mal ahnneun beo-ngeori

Gugyeojin jajonshimi mwo jungyo-haettneunji
neo-ege dalryeogago shipeunde ajikdo
Nan irido himideonde Cool hancheok-haryeo
amureotji ahneun-cheogeulhae
Miryeoneul beoril su ittdamyeon-ya
mi-umeul ddeolchil suman ittdamyeon-ya
My dear neobbun iran geoseul ani
dwineujeun hu kkaedahnasseo
I’m sorry my boo

Amureotji ahneun cheok
useoya hanayo
Na amureotji ahneun cheok
haruga jinaganeyo oh oh
Amureotjido ahneun cheok
amu-il eobdaneun cheok
Jiwoboneun neo-eui heunjeok
iksuk-haejyeo ganeyo

Yo yo I need you come back
soljik-i mal hagoshipjiman
Mami mugeobne fallin’ neon eodi uh
cheot de-iteu jeoldae ijji mothae Wae ?
Dalryeogen ajikdo pyoshidwin neoui birthday

Oh no I don’t believe
na-eui useumi seogeul-peojyeottde saramdeuri
Majuchindeut-han chingeunhage neukkyeojideon sai
Bamsaen jeonhwa geuddaen mwon
halmari geurido mahnattdeon-ga
Geurae neon eoddeohani mahni
na mame geolryeo moth jikin yaksogi ajik-kkaji

Geokjeongdo dwae mahni
geudaedo nacheoreom bamsae-ulkka
deo miahn-hande
Neon malhaettjahna naege
neomuhae munjega mwonde
nan ajik seotunde
Geurae babo gateun dwineujeun huhoe
where u at?
Neo gabeorimyeon nan eoddeok-hae

Amureotji ahneun cheok
useoya hanayo
Na amureotji ahneun cheok
haruga jinaganeyo oh oh
Amureotjido ahneun cheok
amu-il eobdaneun cheok
Jiwoboneun neo-eui heunjeok
iksuk-haejyeo ganeyo

Geudaedo dareun namjawa dareulge-eobseottjyo
wae naege ijewa ddansorihaeyo
Neo-eui miraega deo jungyo-haettjahnayo woo
(Charari geojitmal jaeng irago malhaeyo)
Neo wonhaneun daero haettjahna ddo waeyo
ijewaseo mwol
(Mal haneunji naega nabbeuji
charari geojitmal jaeng irago malhae)
Charari mothdeureun-cheokhago kkeuhneul-kkeyo

Neoneun mollayo mahni gominhae bamsae-un mal
Geudael ullimyeo na I say goodbye
Neoneun mollayo mahni gominhae bamsae-un mal
I noraen nae apeum-e bando ahndwae uh uh uh

Neoneun mollayo mahni gominhae bamsae-un mal
Geudael ullimyeo na I say goodbye
Neoneun mollayo mahni gominhae bamsae-un mal
I noraen nae apeum-e bando ahndwae uh uh uh

**English Translation**

Yo this is the song for my ex girlfriend aight
Yeah d-d-dedicated
I promise I ain’t gonna hold out shawty
I’ma give it all to you listen up bust it

Am I supposed to laugh
as if nothing’s wrong
As if nothing’s wrong
each day passes by oh oh

Hey I haven’t called you in awhile,
I just called to say I’m sorry
And for that I am even more sorry
Honestly, I don’t have anything to say,
so I’m just babbling
I was wondering how you have been
“What do you want?”
I don’t want to hear it again,
so I try hard to sound okay
You’ve become mute on the other side
because of the random things I’m saying

What’s so great about my crooked pride
(I want to run to you but still…)
It’s so hard, but I try to act cool,
as if nothing’s wrong
(If I could get rid of this affection,
if I could get rid of this hatred)
My dear do you know you’re all I have,
I realized too late
I’m sorry my boo

Am I supposed to laugh
as if nothing’s wrong
As if nothing’s wrong
each day passes by oh oh
As if nothing’s wrong,
as if nothing’s going on
Memories of you I once tried to erase
are starting to grow on me oh oh

I need you come back,
I want to tell you truthfully
My heart’s heavy fallin where are you uh
I can never forget our first date (Why?)
Your birthday is still marked on my calendar

Oh no I don’t believe,
people are saying my laughter has died

There was a familiarity like long lost friends

We used to talk on the phone all night
How did we have so many things to say back then,
“How are you doing?”
The promises I weren’t able to keep still clings to my heart
I worry bout you a lot,
I wonder if you stay awake at night like I do

And I feel sorry once again,
you said it yourself
“You’re too mean” What’s the problem?
I’m still trying to figure things out
Like an idiot my regrets came too late
(Where you at?)
If you leave, what am I supposed to do

Am I supposed to laugh
as if nothing’s wrong
As if nothing’s wrong
each day passes by oh oh
As if nothing’s wrong,
as if nothing’s going on
Memories of you I once tried to erase
are starting to grow on me oh oh

You’re no different from the other guys
Why are you taking back everything you said before
Your future was more important to you
(Why don’t you just call me a liar)
I did everything your way.
What do you want from me now?
(If I say it, I’ll be the bad guy.
Why don’t you just call me a liar)
I’ll hang up now, and pretend I didn’t hear that

You don’t know the nights I’ve spent contemplating
You’re crying because I- I say “Goodbye”
You don’t know the nights I’ve spent contemplating
This song isn’t even half of my sorrow Uh Uh Uh

You don’t know the nights I’ve spent contemplating
You’re crying because I- I say “Goodbye”
You don’t know the nights I’ve spent contemplating
This song isn’t even half of my sorrow Uh Uh Uh



LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST 

~yona_afzan~

dipenjara janji.. lagi..

Dia tempat ku sandar
Angan ku pendamkan
Satu percintaan
Yang bisa ku jadikan
Tangga-tangga ku ke pintu syurga
Meleraikan rindu

Mengecap bahagia
Yang kerap dimadah
Insan yang murni
Yang dah rasakan cinta
Yang aku... mimpi

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST
~yona_afzan~

Silent Pain..

Bila nak diluahkan tapi tak terucap..
Takut pada segala kemungkinan yang mendatang..

Mungkin di sini saja tempat yang boleh aku utarakan..

Aku rindu giler dekat ko, sengal !!!

Mohon jangan dimainkan perasaan gadis lurus seperti aku,

Walau dengan sekadar kata rindu,

Sebab itu sudah cukup bagiku,

Kerna hati ini sudah terpaut padamu..

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Dear you,

All the best and good luck.
May Allah grants you success, insyaAllah.
Take a good care of yourself and be safe..

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST 

~yona_afzan~

OST Still 2 (Thailand Horror Movie)

lagu cinta yang horror sebab baru lepas tengok Still 2..
cerita horror yang best setanding Phobia
sampai gua yang ganas serta muka ketat ni boleh duduk hujung katil sambil menjerit sorang2..

"Do you wanna know how much I love you?
Love you till last breath,
That's all I can do.

Even if you don't love someone like me,
It doesn't matter,
I still love you anyway.

Don't ask me how many I loved,
Or how many disappointments I've felt,
Do you wanna know how much I love you?
Love you till last breath.

Even if you don't love someone like me,
It doesn't matter,
I still love you anyway.

Just one thing,
Don't ask about my past,
Because from now on, there will be only you,
Please believe in what I've been telling you,
I love you,
I really love you.

Please look deep into my eyes,
There's only you inside,
Just one thing,
Don't ask about my past,
Because from now on, there will be only you,
Please believe in what I've been telling you,
That I love you,
I really love you."

... dan akhirnya mereka semua mati...

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST 

~yona_afzan~

Falling away with you

Hello there,
Just to let you know that,
It’s been a while,
Since I last heard about you,
And I have been ignoring you for quite sometimes,
I know you seems to notice about it too,
But you just let it slipped away and not even make a fuss about it..

It’s not that I didn’t want to,
But it’s because of my heart says not to anymore..
I didn’t mean to but I think right now you are,
Now more than a friend to me and I can’t hold it any longer..

You're so nice to me,
You starts to care about me,
And I do really love to be with you,
Each and every single day,
But you were once someone’s special whom I know,
Whom I don’t even dare to break one’s precious heart..

Thanks for always be there when I thought I was alone and no one around,
Thanks for always take care by far,
Thanks for all the things you have done so far,
Thanks for the short yet sweet memories you have given me..

Though you may not be reading this,
I hope later you know that,
Right now my heart belongs to you,
And I hope you understand,
Why I have to choose this kind of path..

Don’t ask when it happened,
As I didn’t even realized it,
But I have fallen in love with you,
Right here, right now..

:: to you who loves to call me by my full name,
SONA AFZAN.. :')


LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST 

~yona_afzan~

i just want to be an ARCHITECT!!!

since i was a kid, i used to dream in becoming one of Malaysia's architect specifically in housing construction so that i could let my opinions to be heard out loud when dealing with people who are stubborn enough to build a house with low quality materials.

then, all my hopes seem to fade away as i just couldn't comprehend architecture academically in this prestigious university. my grades are way too low to perform nor becoming one of the dean list, unlike my school days where i once one of the achievers with good marks.

but, because of the 'akur janji' thingy which was made during my school time when i was 17 which i keep safely with me til now as it was a vow i made in front of my beloved mom at that time, i just couldn't let my feet off from where i wanted to be, though there are so many obstacles i need to face. i used to think to just drop from this architorture thingy and do something else which will hurt myself less. but then, to think again and again of doing it, i don't have a heart to just let go of what i've been dreaming of and to be doing the one of the things i love the most as this is once of a lifetime chance of living.

i am not smart, seriously and frankly speaking. 

therefore, please pray for my success in this path i have chosen,

which is still dark for me.

:: i wanted to make people live happily in what they will live in for.

its not just a house, its a home..

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST 

~yona_afzan~

Aku rindu..~

Hari ini,
Tiba-tiba je..
Rindu,

Rindu pada yang sudah pergi, 

Rindu pada yang sudah tiada..
Rindu pada mereka yg tidak sempat kuucapkan
Terima kasih kerana menjadi sebahagian daripada diri..
Tak terungkap kata sayang di saat mereka di sisi..

Ya, kerana ego membelenggu diri dan hati..
Kini, penyesalan bermaharajalela..

Tapi sudah tiada maknanya..
Hanya dapat kupohon doa dan bacaan yasin buat mereka..

Semoga mereka damai di sana dan tergolong di kalangan orang beriman..

Al-fatihah buat mereka yg tercinta..

Arwah pah,

Arwah to'ki, 

Arwah mok, 

Dan yg teristimewa, 

Arwah muaz..

Bila agaknya dapat kita berjumpa lagi? 

Moga kalian tunggu kedatanganku..~

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST

~yona_afzan~

Women: How to Get the Date of Your Dreams

by: http://likes.com/relationships/women:-how-to-get-the-date-of-your-dreams

#1 Check Your Environment

You need to be in places where men you are interested in will be. Want to date a yogi who can practice those asanas with you? See what events your yoga studio has. If a doctor is your goal, hospitals often have restaurants and cafeterias where MDs are regulars. Put yourself in the right place.

#2 Smile

It sounds simple, doesn't it? This one little cue that lets men know you're interested is never used enough. It's warm, welcoming, and seriously increases your chances of finding Mr. Right.

#3 Approach Him

Sometimes, you don't get what you want unless you ask for it. Men are confused nowadays. Some women play hard to get, others are cougars - make it easy on the guy.

#4 Don't be Coy

There was a time when playing coy was in a woman's favor but those times are gone. Men aren't really sure what to do and they're just as nervous as you. If he hints at getting together, make it clear you'd love to.

#5 Steer Clear of the Bar Scene

Sure, the occasional lounge or favorite restaurant bar is fine. But you know exactly what kind of men can usually be found prowling the local watering holes - and it's not the kind of men you want to date.

#6 Buy Him a Drink

If you DO spot the perfect man at happy hour, buy him a drink. It's a ballsy move. Bartenders can be utilized to deliver the drink, and all you need to do is smile. Judge what kind of guy he might be. Casually dressed men will probably enjoy a microbrew. Business pros should be bought a nicely aged scotch.

#7 Try Something New

Chances are, Mr. Perfect is not in your usual circle (otherwise you would have found him by now). A lot of men enjoy rock climbing, which is a great sport for you too! The best part? Everyone needs a belay partner.

#8 Let Go of that Checklist

You know that advice of creating a checklist of the "dream man?" Yeah, we'd all like George Clooney. Let go of some of the unrealistic expectations and focus on what counts.

#9 Don't Overlook Red Flags

A lot of us fall hard. Those dimples, that six figure salary, that luscious hair. But don't let anyone pull the wool over your eyes. Keep an eye out for red flags, like if he only texts you and never calls.

#10 Always Look Your Best

Sure, you're just going to the grocery store down the street, so why bother with changing out of that ancient sweater? Take some pride in your appearance. The right guy might just be in the produce section.

#11 Don't Wear Rings

Every fashionista has a slew of glam jewelry. Accessories are the spice of life, after all! But men that are interested might scan a woman's hand for a wedding ring. Don't let him get confused and keep hands manicured and ring-free.

#12 Sound Interesting

When he asks what your hobbies are (or if you have plans later) speak up. Don't be shy. And if he asks to do something later in that night, politely decline but offer a date night later in the week.

#13 Like Your Job

What would think of someone that had nothing but negative comments about their workplace? Pick out some things you do like and focus on that. Not employed? Tell him about what you would like to be doing and the steps you're taking to get there.

#14 Tell Him What You Like

Want a dream date? He's not a mind reader. This depends on the woman speaking up. Is your ideal date a romantic dinner with candles? Tell him. Are you more the beach picnic type? There's only one way for him to know.

#15 Be a Lady

You want to date a gentleman? Then be a lady. This means no innuendos, ending the conversation first, and presenting yourself how you want to be perceived.

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST 

~yona_afzan~

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Friends aren't just about "I know you-you know me" thingy,
It's something greater than that.
Like when if we're not together, but we feel the togetherness by far..
Like when you close your eyes, they're the ones who keep popping in your head.

When we fight, we forgive and forget easily, no heart feeling..
No money needed,
Just pure love that keeps flowing in our blood.
That's the most valuable friends I've ever had..

I'm no good in saying lovey things like "I love you" or what.
But I tend to express them with my own kind of way,
Just because I don't really believe in words..

It is end of the year.
I may not be around like I used to after this.
I'm a workaholic,
I take my job seriously..

But need not worry.
When the moment is right,
In a surprise, I'll be in front of you.
Having holiday and spend time together like the old days..

Pray for my success oh my dearie friends,
As I always need them especially from you who know me inside out.
Without you by my side,
I may not be who I am today..

Thank you for always here and still here with me,
While others keep on leaving with no goodbye,
There's nothing I can compare with you.

Hope this friendship remains,
And will never be expired,
Even when we have our own growing life.. :')

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST

~yona_afzan~

Love Is All Around Me

Huhu, patutnya time-time ni tengah menggila siapkan report Kajian Topikal dan Tesis tapi boleh pulak curik-curik masa hapdet blog. Bukan taknak buat report, tapi tengah ketiadaan mood. Mood masih tak sampai untuk berkarya, cewahhhh..

Agak-agak kalau lecturer baca blog aku ni, memang mintak free je kena pelangkung ni. Nak tunggu mood sampai memang tak siap la report tu kan? Sama gak macam ko tunggu bakal suami jatuh dari langit ke riba yang selagi ko asyik dok kejar si dia yang memang terang-terang taknak ko a.k.a REJECT ko tapi ko buat tak faham je siap sanggup tunggu dia terima ko seadanya konon.. puuuiiiiii.. 

(berkata-kata buat diri sendiri sambil hempuk kepala secara maya)

Ok, cukup pasal tu. Tu bukan main topic kita untuk hari ni. Love yang aku maksudkan sini adalah kasih sayang yang aku dapat daripada merka yang tiada pertalian darah waima main lompat tali pun tak pernah bersama sekalipun. Awal-awal pagi aku dah dihantar msg, wassep yang berbaur suntikan semangat bagi menghabiskan pengajian di peringkat degree. Siap post gambar abang bomba dengan kata-kata yang penuh membakar semangat nak siapkan semuanya.

Kalau dulu dekat sekolah aku selalu kena buli sampai aku rasa macam memang dalam dunia ni takkan ada orang yang aku nak kawan pun sebab hati dah penuh dengan benci dan dendam kesumat terhadap orang-orang yang selalu mendajalkan aku. Tapi, siyes sekarang aku rasa akulah insan yang paling bertuah sebab pergi mana-mana ada orang sayang. Dan, aku rasa bersalah giler sebab dulu ada yang aku sisihkan sebab aku takut didajalkan oleh mereka yang aku tak kenali hati budi. Nak je aku jumpa minta maaf sebab aku ingat muka-muka mereka yang nak menabur kasih dekat aku dulu tapi aku reject sayang yang diorang yang bagi. Sungguh tak bersyukur aku waktu tu. Mohon ampun dan maaf atas kekhilafan lalu kerana trauma masih menghantui diri suatu masa dahulu.

Huhu, kenangan pahit lalu yang mengajar aku untuk menjadi manusia berhati kering takkan aku hapuskan dari kotak ingatan tapi aku berjanji untuk menilai dahulu yang mana kaca, mana permata untuk bersama-sama aku meneruskan perjalanan yang tiada ketahui kesudahannya bagaimana..

(hati kering tapi mata berkaca-kaca..zzz~)

Akhir kata, terima kasih atas kasih sayang yang dicurahkan walaupun tiada ikatan antara kita. Kasih sayang itu akan saya jadikan sulaman jiwa walau ke mana saya pergi bagi mengendahkan caci maki mulut jahat mereka yang tidak senang dengan kejayaan dan diri saya sendiri. Kalian tahu kalian siapa dan siapa kalian bagi saya. Antara yang menaikkan dan terus mengangkat saya ketika jatuh bangun ataupun yang menjatuhkan dan terus menjahanamkan saya sehingga saya tidak mampu mendongak langit untuk mencari arah tuju dulu.

Doakan saya sentiasa agar saya sentiasa ingat asal usul dan selalu ingat hala tuju ke jalan yang diredhai oleh-Nya.

Kasih sayang kalian tiada tandingannya...

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST

~yona_afzan~

Maafkan aku..

Sahabat,
Maafkan aku atas memungkiri janji,
Janjiku untuk menemani dirimu,
Pada hari hari bahagiamu,
Tidak mampu aku penuhi..

Sahabat,
Bukan maksudku mengkhianati janji itu,
Tiada kuduga semua ini berlaku,
Ku tahu dosa itu terletak di bahuku,
Kerana tidak memberitahumu terlebih dahulu,
Yang bahawa aku tidak mampu berada di situ..

Sahabat,
Sungguh,
Telah aku cuba,
Namun aku tidak terdaya,
Walau mengirim sepatah nota,
Kerana aku percaya,
Kau pasti menunggu kedatanganku..

Sahabat,
Kalaulah kau mengerti isi hatiku,
Yang meronta ingin berada bersamamu,
Melihat wajah ria mu kini menjadi milik si dia,
Ahh.. aku bersalah,
Aku serba salah ingin menghantar pesanan duka,
Akibat kekangan yang terpaksa ku hadapi,
Menyebabkan aku tidak dapat bersama di hari itu..

Sahabat,
Percayalah,
TIdak mungkin aku akan menyakiti hatimu,
Aku begitu menyayangimu,
Doaku sentiasa bersamamu,
Tunggu aku pada hari pernikahanmu nanti..
Ini janjiku, bukan tipu..

ps: Maafkan aku dan selamat menjadi tunangan orang sayang..

pss: Mohon kahwin lepas aku habis belajar, takmo miss wedding ko pulak. At least, time tu aku dah ada duit sendiri.. :')

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST
~yona_afzan~

Maaf...

Maaf,

Aku tak sempurna, 

Punya kekurangan sini sana, 

Hingga nampak jelas di pandangan mata.. 

Andai bisa, 

Miliki topeng cuma satu rupa, 

Sedih suka benci gembira, 

Akanku guna hingga, 

Kau tidak akan pernah tahu perasaanku sebenarnya.. 

Sayang ia tiada, 

Yang ada cuma aku, 

Tidak tahu berpura, 

Semua terpancar di raut muka.. 

Bukan inginku begini, 

Harap kau mengerti, 

Bukan niatku menyakiti, 

Dan ketahuilah bahawa, 

Maafku ini dari hati..

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST
~yona_afzan~